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15 June 2011 @ 08:06 pm
 Seth Putnam is dead.

I met Seth a few times. I think the first one was at the Fleet's Fest of Freaks show at Babyhead. He was a raving asshole. Not content to sully a conversation by adding to it with inflammatory rhetoric - no.... He had to toss a beer into the face of a man who would want to kill him. He had to piss on a nun. He had to scream that he was being raped by the FBI, and then cackle as anyone who looked at him in the confusion was now open to his ridicule and derision.

It was pretty tough to be around the guy.

He got his ass kicked more than times than not, and there was nobody that had his back. Too many stories float around where the last punch thrown in his ragged face came from his own bandmates. And Seth was ok with it. Truth, as it is, Seth was often fond of self abuse (and not the good kind) as well - Hard drinking, drug abuse, and everything from punching himself in the face to smashing his groin with the closest persons head. 

And all of this was funny - sad - amazing and hopelessly boring to him.He wanted nothing more than to be this way, and he hated every second of it as it happened. He longed for the chaos, and he dreaded the passing of each second into the next.

Seth Putnam is dead, and so many people are glad of it. He REALLY was an asshole of the highest order. His passing, I have to assume, will be mourned by some - They will say nice things, and MAYBE they will realize that Seth would have mocked them as being "So fucking gay." This whole write up? It would bring down a hail of heat from the lead troll of Anal Cunt. - And I can handle that.

Seth Putnam is dead, and he left a legacy. He was a part of a scene that is defined by music that is cartoonishly over the top. Some people say that he was the GG Allin of the Grindcore scene - That he was the Billy Milano of Boston - And I say that those people are complete idiots.

Seth Putnam was Seth Putnam. We was nothing more and nothing less. He was an antagonist that was lucky enough to have a chance to have an audience and an outlet for his outrageousness. Maybe the other two were the same story, in their own way - but Seth was just Seth. To say otherwise means that you are thinking about it too hard.

Seth Putnam is dead.
 
 
The Mood Is: apatheticapathetic
 
 
Cannibal
04 May 2011 @ 08:52 pm

Once. Another. Again.
Repeat. Return. Replicate.

OnceAnotherAgain
Inside of me
of you
of us
It does this thing
no real rhythm
no real rhyme
it does this thing
OutOfHabit

And. Need.

Self aware, self absorbed, selfish self

Wants to see how different the world will be
In twenty-two seconds.

Never wants the world to see how different
It will be without
SelfAwareSelfAbsobedSelfishSelf.

Once. Repeat. Another.
Return. Again. Replicate.

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Cannibal
30 June 2010 @ 05:36 pm

So it is.
That words, when placed in front of
and or behind one another, make meaning

and misunderstandings.

That these words can create sorrow, and supply hope
to those that have none.

So it is.
That words can be thoughts; shared,
and that they may also be held in secret

for an audience of some or none.

That those self same words and thoughts may bind
you to some, exclude you from others.

So it is.
That words are just strings of characters
within an algorithm of acceptable syntax

So it is.

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Current Location: US, Connecticut, New London
 
 
Cannibal
28 June 2010 @ 10:20 pm
My cat has been put to sleep. She's gone now, but memories linger - in the end... That is what we all become.

The transformation from a physical, tangible, being into a state of æther. The difference between life and death is a wall of what may happen to you yet, and the reflections of what once was.

Nothing more. No grand reward. No epic sounds of horns, heralding the mighty return...

Just the quiet focus of absence that permeates the place where you previously occupied in the lives of others.

Simple. Honest. True.

Death is not the end, as memories linger. It is not the beginning, as there is nothing to follow it - No... Death is the transfer of physical potential, into an inert reflection. Matter turned to energy, as fire consumes the fuel.
 
 
The Mood Is: There is one leaf on the tree...
The Music Is: Dream Of Immortality - Solitude Aeturnus
 
 
Cannibal

I was recently talking about freedom - freedom of religion, freedom of speech, freedom to peacefully assemble, our right to bear arms... Each comes with a certain amount of controversy, as we each have our thoughts and opinions on what those rights mean in the modern age.

We have the right to debate those things - we have those rights, in the first place - because of The Constitution.

And we have The Constitution because of the people who have defended it, time after time - year after year - generation after generation.

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Cannibal
30 May 2010 @ 10:03 pm
Another post that questions the use for an lj.

For example - Dio recently passed away. I could write and write and write about how much a hate that the world is now without that man. But to what end?

Dio was a force, that much is true. He became a legend within the scene while he was still alive to see it. He knew that he was loved and adored by people in every corner of the Earth.

What would ME, writing about him in an lj do for him, his legacy, his place in the history of Metal and the pantheon of Metal Gods? the answer is simple, of course. It'll never matter. Nothing that I could write, here or elsewhere, will add to or diminish the immortal fire that is Ronnie James Dio.

The answer becomes clearer - I write it for me. As a place to save words. As a place to allow letters to fall into place to convey thought and heart. One sound, one phonetic piece of the puzzle, at a time.

The answer is clear, like a rainbow in the dark...
 
 
The Music Is: Silence
 
 
Cannibal
31 March 2010 @ 12:01 pm
Wow.  

LiveJournal... What part do you play in the Twitter, Facebook, FriendFeed, Buzz world?

Where do you fit in?

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Cannibal
05 January 2010 @ 10:05 pm

I have been thinking about the state of this journal - the uses that I have had for it - the purpose for having it...

What value did it bring?

It has been a method by which I have been able to meet others, reconnect with some important people from my past, and a way that I have been able to vent / ramble in a longer form than the various different social networking umbrellas that I use.

Thanks, little LJ. Thanks for everything!

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Cannibal
05 January 2010 @ 10:05 pm

I have been thinking about the state of this journal - the uses that I have had for it - the purpose for having it...

What value did it bring?

It has been a method by which I have been able to meet others, reconnect with some important people from my past, and a way that I have been able to vent / ramble in a longer form than the various different social networking umbrellas that I use.

Thanks, little LJ. Thanks for everything!

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Cannibal
25 November 2009 @ 10:36 pm

Ummm... I'm being told that this isn't what they meant by, "dressing the turkey." - http://animoto.com/play/8cwSzdhSteWtieOkI8ztZA

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